Tuesday, January 12, 2010

What a horrible day

This morning I had oatmeal, scrambled eggs and a glass of milk for breakfast. I felt well and happy until sometime during my commute. Then during my walk from the subway station to school I noticed my legs were weak and aching and I kept losing my balance. The snow didn't help.

It just got worse from there. I got REALLY tired, even though I slept for more than seven hours and ate a nutritious breakfast. And I felt dazed too -- like I hadn't slept at all. I generally felt really unwell. This was all in addition to the leg and balance problems. I found it hard to concentrate in class. I only had two classes, fortunately. What should I do if I feel unwell and I have three classes, plus a lunch hour, plus homework? I'm really concerned about this. This kind of day normally puts me in bed or on the couch, but I'm commuting and going to classes! It won't be long before I'm doing homework too. It seems so crazy now. I love the classes, assignments, instructors, campus and my classmates, but still, I don't feel ready to leave the sick life. This is so freaking hard.

What made the day suck even more was that I found out OSAP (loan service) was holding my grant money, which I need to pay off my tuition. The representative on the phone had no idea why my money was on hold. It will take at least two days to get an answer, and even then the problem might not be solved. Then once it is solved, it will take a week for the money to get into my bank account. What am I supposed to do until then? This term's tuition was due to be paid in full on the first day of classes, which was yesterday. I'm dreading waiting in the long line to speak to financial aid at my school about this.


  1. Have you tried talking to your bank for a solution? You never know, they might be helpful...And it might make you feel better to think you are at least trying to do something?! :)

  2. Thanks for the suggestion Jinksy! I actually went to my financial aid office at school and explained my situation. The lovely woman I spoke to put a code into my school account to prevent me from being kicked out of the program for not paying everything off. Also, I have no deadline and can just pay the school whenever my grant money comes in! Phew! What a relief.

  3. I'm glad that your school seemed understanding about OSAP - money is so frustrating! I hate that the world works where you HAVE to start out in debt, as it's basically required to do some schooling. And the only way to get that schooling is to set yourself BEHIND the starting line but starting out with a massive debt to pay off. Argh.

    Do you own a cane? Does that help with the balance problems any?

  4. I completely agree with you! I think our debt culture just makes us an even more stressed out society!

    I don't own a cane, but sometimes I feel like I need one or could at least really benefit from one. I'm going to see about getting physical and occupational therapy, so I'm hoping they'll understand what my needs are and how to help me. Thanks for asking and commenting.