Careers and Fashion

My former colleagues of my Corporate Communications program have been posting their internship acceptances as their statuses on Facebook. I am tres jealous! Instead of moping that I won't get to experience this excitement for about 9 months, I've decided to research institutions and organizations I may want to work for. I'm pretty sure I want to do something in the health field. These are my options: a charity that provides advocacy and support, a hospital or the government. Toronto has a huge selection of these things! Downtown Toronto alone there are at least five hospitals!

I want an employer who will consider hiring me after the internship, thus eliminating the need for a job search! Such a decision would make sense, as long as there is a budget for me. This is especially true of a charity who could really benefit from my skills, but may only have a budget to hire me part-time or on a contract basis, like for a specific project. I want to go where I am needed, but I also want secure, well paying work.

BUT, there is a part of me that wants an internship in the arts, something that could help attract attention to artists or provide opportunities for creative people and art fans to unite. Or work for a theatre or something! Toronto has a lot of opportunities for artists and people who want to enjoy art: we have many small and large theatres, we host a bunch of festivals like the Toronto International Film Festival, Hot Docs (documentary festival), the Beaches Jazz Festival (which is this weekend, I think!), etc. We also have the Art Gallery of Ontario and the Royal Ontario Museum. We have loads of concert halls where all sorts of artists, some more famous than others, come to perform all year round. I love music and theatre, so all of this really excites me.

Hey, I'm really selling Toronto, aren't I? Maybe I should work in travel and tourism! Haha. I just think it would be very fun and meaningful to support the arts and interview artists, observe their work and engage the public! I'm so excited! I have so many opportunities and I KNOW I will be great. My biggest obstacles are somewhat embarrassing: I have a lot of trouble with phones and photocopiers!

Well, on a serious note, I do have a more significant obstacle and I think anyone who reads this blog will know what it is: I tend to get sick a lot. I'm sure my current illness will be over nine months from now and who knows, maybe I'll be very healthy for a long time after that. If I have trouble with the physical aspects of an internship or get sick with other things, perhaps I will be able to work from home on occasion. I think this is a consideration I may need to take with an internship. I hope not, though. I really love people and I can't wait to work with them, commute every day, dress up every day and wear make up! Yes, ever since I put on make up for my cousin's wedding a few weeks ago, I've been excited to wear it again. Not now because I'm at home resting in my pajamas most of the time.

I used to wear it regularly in grade 8 and 9. I wore concealer, blush, lipstick, eye shadow, eye liner, mascara -- the works. It made me feel older and I thought it made me look prettier. Then, I think in grade 10 sometime, I completely stopped wearing it. I started dressing really sloppily too and often didn't pluck my eyebrows. I often didn't do my hair either.

I haven't really worn make-up since then, except rarely for special occasions. Now I want to feel glamorous again! I think I'll probably only just wear eye liner and mascara with some lip gloss or something like that. I don't want to bother with eye shadow because I have greasy eye lids and the fatty bits under my eyebrows cover most of my eye lids anyway. So most of the eye shadow comes off. To avoid having mere flakes of eye shadow on my lids, or more on one lid than the other, I'll have to keep reapplying it. I won't bother with lipstick because my lower lip kind of swallows my thinner upper lip when my mouth is closed. I don't want to accentuate that! I may wear blush, though because I have defined cheek bones and jaw lines. I love them! I don't think I'll ever wear concealer again, though. It just looks stupid! Plus, I'm not ashamed of my pimples!

That reminds me. On my birthday I went shopping with my mom who stopped at a kiosk to look for a cream she liked. Well, the overzealous sales woman asked what I used for my acne in this mournful voice, like it was an affliction. It really made me mad. Also, over a year ago I saw a dermatologist about some moles and she wrote me a prescription for acne cream without my even mentioning my acne! It bothered me that she noticed my acne, but then I thought: she's a dermatologist. Of course she noticed!

So much of the beauty industry is built on making women feel ashamed or insecure or finding solutions for aspects of appearance fashion gurus and many women deem undesirable, like acne, a short stature, small breasts, large thighs, etc. It's terrible. It shouldn't be a fashion faux pas for a short person to wear flats instead of heels. (I'm talking to you, Stacy and Clinton from What Not to Wear!)

And speaking of fashion, after about a two month break, I decided to clean my glasses and wear them before sitting down to write this entry. I've been getting the drunk vision again and having trouble maintaining focus. I don't really mind, though. These prism lenses really help make everything look sharper. Besides, I love wearing glasses. I think they suit me and make me appear older. I'm going for the sexy librarian look.